sunday.

today i woke up around 2pm. it feels good to lay around and do jack shit. but i eventually feel guilty and force myself out of bed to wash my ugly afternoon face in front of the bathroom mirror.

anyway.

here is a list of invaluable things i learned today:

1) i like how people sit staggered on subway seats. do people hate touching shoulders with other people or what? maybe its just new york, but i have a feeling its just americans. i bet people in france are on the lookout for any excuse to sit on each other's laps.

2) my friend once remarked that 'guys are usually not self aware that they are good looking.' my other friend replied with 'once they grow older, they become aware.' interesting.

3) if you do anything too much, you will miss out on life. if you do too much life, you will miss out on life. life is in moderation.

4) dealing cocaine will get you rich, but the risks are high. the discount packaging rate decreases dramatically for larger and larger amounts of cocaine due to the risks. more drug dealers get busted, more people start dealing because the rewards are high. i finally understand why people deal cocaine. for the deniro.

5) do not waste time. do something you love doing. noah, the one who subletted this apartment to me and my roommates plays some amazing violin. when we were listening to one of his recordings (he played some schuman concerto, accompanied by a full orchestra), his dad (also musically talented) analyzed his playing style: 'i like how you put the extra grace note at the end of the F# trill', 'i like how everything you play is a hair flat. thats not bad, it makes what you play more real, more human. it makes it sound ten times more beautiful'. at that point, i realized that i never got that serious with violin. i never got to the point where i can just do what i want with the music, add my own special twist to it, make the concerto my own. leave my own fingerprint on it so people will say 'andy's version of vieuxtemp's 5th concerto is muscular and dirty compared to ...'. in order to get to that point, you have to know that you were born with a violin in a hand with the god given intent to make beautiful music. you need to love playing violin to fully enjoy messing around--adding a silly grace not with a smirk on stage with no remorse nor shame, for instance. and this not only applies to violin or music for that matter. just gotta love whatchu do.

6) the only real need people should concern themselves with is the need to be happy. everything else should come after that.

7) i finally understand what it means to live without regrets. why bother thinking about what could've, would've, should've happened? it can't change nothin'. word.

8) i learned what it means to give. i remember before i decided to rush akpsi (pronounced 'ack-sigh,' haha) brothers told me 'the more you give,the more you get in return.' what is this, i thought to myself, teaching me the principles of karma? i now know that the more you give, i.e. the more time you spend with your pledge class, the more close friends you will have in your pledge class as a result. one and one is two. these make sense. today, i gave a hobo the change in my pocket. seriously, what am i going to use that change on anyway besides glueing them onto the ground, hiding behind a bush, and watching dumbasses bend over to try to pick them shits up? i might as well just use it to help someone else out. giving money is a mindset, something that is not dependent on your eco-socionomic status or income level. learn how to give so you can give when you become rich and powerful. it will pay off in the end.

9) use capitalism to your advantage. find a need that needs to be filled. provide that need. sit back and watch your mound of cash grow.

10) LIVE.


i like number 10 the best. 6 is a close second, though.

-andy

now playing: gym class heroes - 'clothes off!'